New Divide ~ 4 /Chester

A while after Mike left, I thought it was enough, cowardly ? Quiet ? Upset ? Nervous ? Was that really me ? It certainly wasn't me before I told Mike... I think I should end this...The stress nearly eat me, I shall let it no more. At least that was what I thought. I also thought I had to do it quickly, so I grabbed the phone and called Mike straight away.

Me : Hey where are you ?

Mike : Well I'm on my way home.

Me : Is there any chance you could come back, I need to tell you something..

Mike : Is it that important ?

Me : To me it is.

Mike : I'll be right over.

I considered it once, yes, I was ready, like I never was. I had been waiting beside my door, I didn't even let Mike knock, once I heard footsteps I opened the door, I think that was the only time I saw him from behind a door not smiling. He followed me into the sitting room and sat down, "So..." I started, it couldn't be unnoticed, how his deep brown eyes glared right into mine, for a moment.. I got lost in them, so beautiful, like dark winter trees at twilight. Jesus Chester concentrate, I told myself. I wanted to begin but "Ugh.. ah..." I tried. It was as if my speech was taken. " Aygh... Lah" I forced myself but no effort. "Eeem.. Chester are you Okay ? " Mike questioned. But still, I was speechless, I let my head do a small nod, for for some reason it was stiffened, so was my voice. What was wrong ? "I... I think I should go now " He exclaimed, I shook my head and waved my hand to show him not to, " I thought you wanted to tell me something" He gasped. " I can't.. " I whispered, in a high, silent voice, almost a shriek. Mike stared at me pulling a confused, worried, almost an unbelieving face, he just froze, I wanted to do something, say something, I couldn't.. But why ? ~Chester