That was the day... I finally had the guts.. Or maybe I was only telling myself that ? Whatever was happening, I was ready. I thought it over a few times, and wanted to back out but, NO ! I told myself, that was the day... Today Or never, at some point I would have rather it to be never..
I was in my room, all by myself. I was sitting on the bed thinking, if it was the right decision. When suddenly the doors to my room got flung open, who else could it be but Mike with a big smile across his face.. Sometimes I wonder if there's a particular reason why he is so happy and why is his smile so beauti... No, I had to concentrate. "What you up to ?" He asked still smiling. I took a deep breath and I gulped loudly and said "I have something important to say" I murmured. Mike heard it so he sat down beside me, staring right at me... I bit my lip, gradually grabbed his hand and I whispered under my breath.. "I'm... Gay." The silence seemed to have lasted forever, but eventually Mike lifted his head and announced softly "I'm glad you told me". Looking right in my eyes smiling slightly, I think this was the kindest smile I ever saw... Was that a good thing ? I felt my heart beating like mad, I started getting weaker but suddenly it didn't even matter, because he was there with me. My mind went mad but I succeed to crack a smile. Mike stood up energetically and said cheerfully "Well, I ordered a pizza, but I still need to go to get some soda, so answer it for me " before he left the building. I just nodded and again all those thoughts attacked my head. Was that the right decision ? Was it the right time ? Will that change anything ? All those questions just seemed to mix up in my mind, was it the stress that made me loose cautiousness ? ~ Chester
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